Honesty

by The Purge

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Derek Karnes While I tend to fall out of Goth/Industrial these days (please don't take my card, black is still my favorite color) and into other genres, The Purge always brings me back. The track "Self Repair" really hit home for me, lyrically and musically. The Cure influence is unmistakable, but it's also obviously a unique homage and not a stolen sound. Highly recommended. Favorite track: Self Repair (Alethea's Song).
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VampyreBytes "Honesty" is the most "The Purge-iest" album. I was only a few songs in when I first wrote this, but yeah..... Holy Frack man. It's like the Purge used to hide behind curtains of The Cure and Thomas just stripped the curtains away and left himself exposed and it's beautiful. It's everything I love about Nur Black but as The Purge.
This album is just ... The Purge. Favorite track: It's Not Your Fault (Dark Places).
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    All jokes aside, this is a very special and, in some ways, challenging album. It was written to illustrate a powerful passion and speak its truth without compromise. As an artist, and as a person really, I've found myself in a very strange and wonderful place this last year. I've felt a genuine affection and passion beginning to grow around what I create, and the work I do both with the music and outside of it has been rewarding. Exhausting, but rewarding.

    I've been learning what friendship means. I've been learning what love is. I've been learning how to give those things to myself.

    And I've gotten help on this journey.

    Honesty is a special dedication to the artist Alethea Leventhal, also known as the music producer Ships In The Night. The physical version of this CD has that dedication printed on the inside panel.

    If you don't already know who she is, you should. Her music is patiently calculated and hauntingly ethereal. And her voice? Her voice has a ghostly timelessness to it that feels as though it's reaching out directly to you, guiding you with wisdom, experience, maybe more than a pinch of sorrow, and, well, honesty.

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This album is dedicated to Alethea Leventhal, the artist and music producer also known as Ships in the Night.

Thank you for being a friend, eine kleine Schwester, an admiral, a queen, and the girl I don't stop thinking about all at once.

Thank you, especially, for teaching me to be okay with the fact that "sometimes there's a lot to say."

I care about you and I love you.
-Thomas

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released August 5, 2019

Songs written and produced by Thomas Duerig.

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Track Name: Honesty
I could use venom either way
Tonic or toxic, lust gets obnoxious
Breakin' away, tryna heal
Like I give a damn about how I feel

Like I give a damn about how I feel
Like I give a damn about how I feel

I could use passion either way
Productive/destructive, something corrupted
Something to trust in and heal
Like I give a damn about how you feel

Like I give a damn about how you feel
Like I give a damn about how you feel

I could use venom either way
Tonic or toxic, forgiving what's caustic
Reaching out, trying to heal
Like I give a damn about how I feel

Like I give a damn about how I feel

I could use venom either way
I could use passion either way
I could use venom either way
I could use passion either way
I could use venom either way
I could use passion either way
I could use venom either way
I could use passion either way
I could use venom either way
I could use passion either way
I could use venom either way
I could use passion either way
I could use venom either way
I could use passion either way
I could use venom either way
I could use passion either way

I could use venom either way
Track Name: Miss You
I will miss you
When the night is done
I will miss you
When the night is over

I will miss you
When you kiss me
I will miss you
When you're with me
I will miss you
When we sleep as one
I will miss you
Because we're in love

I will miss you
I will miss you
I will miss you
I will miss you

I will miss you
When you kiss me
I will miss you
When you're with me
I will miss you
When we sleep as one
I will miss you
Because we're in love

I will miss you
When the night is done
I will miss you
When the night is over

I will miss you
When you kiss me
I will miss you
When you're with me
I will miss you
When we sleep as one
I will miss you
Because we're in love

I will miss you
I will miss you
I will miss you
I will miss you

I will miss you
When you kiss me
I will miss you
When you're with me
I will miss you
When we sleep as one
I will miss you
Because we're in love

Because we're in love
Because we're in love

Do you miss me?
Do you miss me?
Do you miss me?
Do you miss me?

I will miss you
When the night is done
I will miss you
When the night is over

I will miss you
When you kiss me
I will miss you
When you're with me
I will miss you
When we sleep as one
I will miss you
Because we're in love

I will miss you
I will miss you
I will miss you
I will miss you

I will miss you
When you kiss me
I will miss you
When you're with me
I will miss you
When we sleep as one
I will miss you
Because we're in love
Track Name: Self Repair (Alethea's Song)
A distant voice from distant days
Something new starting to crawl through the waves
I used to think things couldn't change
And that my fate and all my choices were already made

But all that's starting to change
It's a question of choice

It's a question of choice
This time I'm choosing to change

Something calm in the twilight air
Becoming so suddenly aware
A damaged you, a damaged me
Repairing so similarly

I feel me starting to change
I feel me starting to change

A damaged you, a damaged me,
Repairing so similarly
And I don't flinch when you stand near
The first time in a long time I don't feel fear

A damaged you, a damaged me,
Repairing so similarly
And I don't flinch when you stand near
The first time in a long time I don't feel fear

A damaged you, a damaged me,
Repairing so similarly
And I don't flinch when you stand near
The first time in a long time I don't feel fear

A damaged you, a damaged me,
Repairing so similarly
I feel safe when you are here
The first time in a long time I don't feel fear
Track Name: Mirages
Feel safe; be safe
Feel safe; be safe
What I want for you, I want for me
What I want for me, I want for you

What I want for me, I want for you
Feel safe; be safe

What I want for me, I want for you
What I want for me, I want for you

What I want for me, I want for you
What I want for me, I want for you
What I want for me, I want for you
What I want for me, I want for you

Life can be a sad mirage
I don't want to sabotage again
Life can be a sad mirage
I don't want to sabotage again

Life can be a sad mirage (What I want for me, I want for you)
I don't want to sabotage again
Life can be a sad mirage (What I want for me, I want for you)
I don't want to sabotage again again again

What I want for me, I want for you
What I want for me, I want for you
What I want for me, I want for you
What I want for me, I want for you
Track Name: What Will Be We'll Be
I was learning how to live when I dove in
I was afraid, but I got brave and I wrote a different song to sing

I can love me now
Even when sad winds howl
And I can learn to love you too
And wait for the tides to allow

I am the sun:
A consistent, warm, recurrent star
At night I'll become the moon
And raise oceans for you from afar

I was learning to forgive myself
For all the guilt I wore
I loved broken hearts with broken love
And wrote broken songs in the dark but

I can love me now
Even when sad winds howl
And I can learn to love you too
And wait for the tides to allow

I am the sun:
A consistent, warm, recurrent star
At night I'll become the moon
And raise oceans for you from afar

I can love what is past
I can love what is now
I can love and say, "What will be, will be"
I can love you the way you deserve because I love me

While we're alive
I'm glad we have this
While we're alive
I'm glad we exist

I can love me now
Even when sad winds howl
And I can learn to love you too
And wait for the tides to allow

I am the sun:
A consistent, warm, recurrent star
At night I'll become the moon
And raise oceans for you from afar

I am the sun:
A consistent, warm, recurrent star
At night I'll become the moon
And raise oceans for you from afar
Track Name: Anxiety
Say "Hi" for me
I get anxiety

There's a real person who I've met before
Someone out there who I love and adore
I say everything to her, maybe too much sometimes
I can't tell if I'm okay or if I'm just losing my mind

Say "Hi" for me
I get anxiety

I get anxiety because I grew up lonely
I act out when I'm nervous; I think people disappear
I'm tryna change and make my own self happy
But I get shaky when I think I'll never see you again

Say "Hi" for me
I get anxiety

It's crazy how needy I feel like I am, and I get so guilty around it, and then that kinda spirals out, y'know? Things will be fine, and I'll have so much going on, and then the next thing you know I'm alone with my thoughts and I'll just think about how much I miss you. And I'll think about you while I'm doing other things too, don't get me wrong, and it'll be great and I'll feel inspired, but remember that time I told you about when I was a little kid and I peed on the carpet just to impress my friend because I thought he was starting to not be my friend anymore? It's like that. I care about you and your ambitions more than anyone else's in this world, but when I don't hear from you for a while I get nervous and feel like you've already disappeared, and I'm trying to get help to figure out why, but, I guess, in the meantime

Say "Hi" for me
I get anxiety

Say "Hi" for me
I get anxiety

(Rain, rain, go away, don't come back until I say)
(Rain, rain, go away, don't come back until I say)

Say "Hi" for me

(Rain, rain, go away, don't come back until I say)
(Rain, rain, go away, don't come back until I say)

I get anxiety
Track Name: Demons
You have so many ways to stay away
I tried so many days to be back tomorrow
Sometimes there's a lot to say
We say enough to get through the day
Sometimes there's a lot to say
And we keep demons inside
I told you I would fight for you
Against you if I needed to
I told you what was in my mind
And you kept demons inside

But I've got faith and trust
When we're afraid we'll go from dust to dust
I've got faith and trust
We can raise from the ashes what's left of us

Because I've got faith and trust
I want to show you faith and trust
Because I've got faith and trust
I want to know your demons
Track Name: The Calm (Across the Line)
I remember the calm inside your house
And the sunlight dancing in your room
And the way it felt to watch you come and go
I watched you come and go and I fell in love

I fell in love with you
And I've tried to feel that calm again
I fell in love with you
But we always have to go

You caught my eye inside a dream
And I tried not to let you hold me up, but some nights I wasn't enough for me
I got used to the way it felt to see you crawling through the waves to me
And when we both choked back the ocean

I fell in love with you
And I tried to churn the seas again
I fell in love with you
But we always have to go

When I remember the floor, I know now
Sometimes there's a lot to say
We can't go there every day
But when your voice reached me across the sea I fell in love with you

I fell in love with you
And I've tried to feel that calm again
I fell in love with you
But we always have to go

But today I felt the calm
Today I learned the calm was never you
Today the calm was inside me
Today I learned that the calm was just something you had to teach me
Track Name: It's Not Your Fault (Dark Places)
Sometimes you get to choose
Who lives and who dies

Sometimes you get to choose
who lives and who dies
And if you don't decide
Someone else becomes your guide

It's not your fault when they can't love
It's not your fault when you're not loved

Sometimes you have to lie
To survive in dark places
When you relinquished pride
You were running from your light

Don't forget
The decades spent
Don't forget the times
That you were silenced

It's not your fault when they can't love
It's not your fault when you're not loved

When you gave everything, but it was never enough,
The guilt felt like home
But it was never meant
to be a place for you to live

And it felt like creatures crawling on your skin
And you scratched at it for years
And I know it hurt, because I felt it too
But now we can see the pain for what it is
Track Name: The Purge
I was afraid to let myself feel when we met
But I had already made a choice to heal
I asked why I was afraid to disappear from me
And I asked why I was afraid that you would disappear

I don't have all the answers
But I can make a choice
To do everything different
And be brave

And I don't care if I'm completely wrong about you
Never finding out might be the biggest mistake of my life

And I already told you
I would rather be alone
And be your friend
Then settle for anyone again

And it hurt
And it might hurt again
To trust and change
But we have demons that need to be purged

And I don't care if I'm completely wrong about you
Never finding out might be the biggest mistake of my life

And I already told you
That this is gonna be different
This friendship will last
will last will last

I want to see us heal
And I want this to be real

I'm in love with you
And I want us to purge our demons
I'm in love with you
And I want us to trust and heal and feel again

I want to see us heal
And I want this to be real
Track Name: Sleep Now Darling (Above The Waves)
Sleep now sister
Sleep now darling
This was all born to be
Now rise from the grave

You don't need to build a world
You're already in one and you're safe

Some days I don't believe it
But we made it and we're safe

Sleep now brother
Sleep now darling
I am here beside you
And now it's gone

You don't need to build a world
You're already in one and you're safe

Some days I don't believe it
But we made it and we're safe

Tonight
We're above the waves

Let's go sister
Let's go brother

You don't need to build a world
You're already in one and you're safe

Some days I don't believe it
But we made it and we're safe

Tonight
We're above the waves

Tonight
We're above the waves

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