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I thought of you for months with no intent to stop
And taught myself old songs I might never play for you
I don't want to forget this flash of what you are
And what you mean to me now when I have everything to lose
Your face felt like a kiss those times I was alone
I sang to you more than you might ever know
I made a mistake - I made a fraction known
And the whole thing inside me screwed and twisted and burned
I got carried away
I just want to scream how much that I adore you
I swallow it whole and I choke on the thought
In brief and passing moments - Your hand against mine lightly
Where you begin, I feel the end of me
I got carried away
I push against the shame - I feel too much to lie
My whole life I've tried to diminish and deny
But I can love you from a distance if that's what I'm meant to do
I don't know if it will last, but it feels like pain that I'm supposed to
I got carried away
I got carried away
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Got ways to ruin a good plan
Put your head down look at the ground
Nothing makes sense anymore
And if I can't fit then I'll just break it
Got ways to get through the day
I got all this time to waste
I don't know what's right in the world right now
But at least I know what it means to me
I walked around broken glass to get here
But I still don't know what I want
It gets easier when I don't think
It gets easier when I have things to do
It gets easier when I don't think
It gets easier when I have things to do
It gets easier when I don't think
It gets easier when I have things to do
I'm looking at me like "Is he alive?"
I'm looking at me like "Is he alive?"
I'm looking at me like "Is he alive?"
I'm looking at me like "Is he alive?"
I'm looking at me like "Is he alive?"
I'm looking at me like "Is he alive?"
I'm looking at me like "Is he alive?"
I'm looking at me like "Is he alive?"
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Don't want hurt you
Try not to mess with your feelings
It's just a matter of trust, for us, for lust
Don't want hurt you
Try not to fuck with your feelings
It's just a matter of trust, for us, for lust
You should come over
Cause I can tell from your eyes
Why won't you tell me what's really on your mind
Too much confusion
You need a little more time
So many times now we've been through this before
Don't want hurt you
Don't want to mess with your feelings
It's just a matter of trust, for us, for lust
Don't want hurt you
Don't want to fuck with your feelings
It's just a matter of trust, for us, for lust
Can we start over
Or should I leave you behind?
Give me an answer
But please don't tell me the truth
What's your solution?
You can't make up your mind
This is my answer, you know I wanna leave
Don't say you just wanna go!
Don't you know you're on your own?
Don't say you just wanna go!
Don't you know you're on your own?
Don't want to hurt you
Don't want to hurt you
Don't want to hurt you
Don't want to hurt you
Don't want to hurt you
Don't want to mess with your feelings
It's just a matter of trust, for us, for lust
Don't want to hurt you
Try not to fuck with your feelings
It's just a matter of trust, for us, for lust
Don't want to hurt you
Don't want to mess with your feelings
It's just a matter of trust, for us, for lust
Don't want to hurt you
Try not to fuck with your feelings
It's just a matter of trust, for us, for lust
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I was learning how to live
When you came up
Came on
Came in
Finally feeling broken in
Heard you ring
Giving up on discipline
It's not you, it's me
But in my head, yeah, secretly
I can't stand what you put me through
It's not me; it's you
But yeah you're right to call me out too
Still damaged if don't
Broken if I do
I was learning how to be
When you reached through
Reached out
Reached me
You were tryna make a thing
Let me in
But things got thin
It's not you, it's me,
but in my head, yeah, secretly
I can't stand what you put me through
It's not me; it's you
But yeah you're right to call me out too
Still damaged if don't
Broken if I do
It's not me
It's you
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You came on scared
I came on cold
And we took a step
Back
Nothing happened and I stayed awake for nights
Nothing happened and I wanted to say so much
I got so hurt and tired and dead on the
Inside
We played it cool
But all I wanted was
To tear you
Apart
Nothing happened and I stayed awake for nights
Nothing happened and I wanted to say so much
I got so hurt and tired and dead on the
Inside
Nothing happened and I stayed awake for nights
Nothing happened and I wanted to say so much
I got so hurt and tired and dead on the
Inside
It was worse than I thought
It was worse than I thought
It was worse than I thought
It was worse than I thought
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Reality
02:47
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Unreality
05:15
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I'm losing control
Forgetting what I came here for
Lost in another dimension
Like there's nothing left of me
Saturated reality:
Meaning and purpose but no belief
Meaning and purpose
but no belief
Another night more, she'll understand this time
I can disappear from myself
And if I can't see you; you can't see me
And if I can't see you; you can't see me
I'm forgetting my name
Getting lost in all the games we play
I'm grabbing for context:
You tell a joke and I don't laugh
Heaven help us:
We're forgetting all the roles we play
Now we're fighting again
I tell a joke and you don't laugh
I tell a joke and you don't laugh
I tell a joke and you don't laugh
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Fallen Through
04:29
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I've been a caged bird
With all the right words,
But no heart to breathe into
Caught like an exhale
While the months sailed,
And the years became nothing too
I hurt myself bad
Tryna' be glad
For the future I was heading to
I let it all in
And I let nothing out
I gave everything I had to you
I left so little for me
I left so little for me
I was afraid to sing
I tried to feel nothing
It broke my heart to think of
hurting you,
But I could sense things
All of these tense things
There was nothing I could do
to make you happy for you too
I left so little for me
I left so little for me
It was a bad idea
I know it fell through
Now I don't hate you anymore
I want us both to get through
It was a bad idea
I know it fell through
Now I don't hate you anymore
I want us both to get through
I was a bad idea
I know it fell through
Now I don't hate you anymore
I want us both to get through
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I'm Not Dead
03:35
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I got by fine with the songs in my head
My scenes of you and only you
There's something like love, but I can't explain
But I let it happen to feel like I'm not dead
I'm not dead
I'm not dead
I got sad from the same dance again
I let me get carried away with you
There's something like love, but I can't explain
But I let it happen to feel like I'm not dead
I'm not dead
I'm not dead
Had me holding funerals
For the songs inside my head
Had me hearing my hopes scream
I used to think I'd die without
A little piece of someone else for me
I used to think I'd die
I'm not dead
I'm not dead
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The Purge Norfolk, Virginia
Dark 80s-inspired pop. Dance floor anthems and melancholia.
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